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Sabtu, 21 Mei 2011

have you ever feel a kinda useless ?
is that great ?
no , right ?
yes , that's what I feel now..
being underestimated , unneeded , bullied

i don't fully agree with their words "love is always beautiful , make us smile , blablalaba"
but don't they ever feel ? love can make us desperate , torn to pieces , down syndrome , and almost suicide ? ever they think that love make us more sensitive of being hurted? Now , i wanna know , how is the feeling of hating . I am tired . My huge love to them doesn't mean anything . Their carings are clearly given to "that one" , who survive nothing , who destruct everything . TIRED ! i tired to survive for them , should i show arrogantly to them "hey! look! I am here ! Standing for you , survive for you , almost collapse for you , but no one cares ?" Is that the concequency of loving ? surviving ?

don't you ever see ? I hide my face and my tears falling down because of you ? Ever you care me ? I AM GETTING TIRED . (doesn't i am gonna end my breath for you) . maybe i have to be an evil person , who cares nothing , just let everything flow , don't think forward ? Is that you want i am to be ? sorry , i can't . i am getting older , i am not a little one anymore . the process of my life build me , that's me . Am I wrong to love you ? fight for you though i am being bullied ? cry of you ? show me the reason to say I am wrong ! noone of you care of what I feel .

i wanna hate you a bit . i have tried . badly , i can't . the more i tried to hate you all , the more i think twice , my heart belongs to you . You all belong to my heart . I wanna hate you . Hate me feel unhurted when you hurt me . that's the point . I wanna hate but i can't :(

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Ananda Mutiara Wening
a 18 years old
dentistry collegian
love God , life include the living things ,
facebooking , blogging , tweeting, praying, eating , dreaming , loving <3
chocolatte , brown , purple , all colors,
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